Feel like I amount to dirt right now..

So yes this may not all be spelled right  and it may make no sense but I have to rant for a minute..and I am doing so while crying..

Right at this very moment I feel like I amount to dirt...not a pile of dirt...not a couple specs of dirt...ONE spec of DIRT..
A 17 year old girl needs a room that she can move in..not one with a patch of carpet that you can only fit a bed into..but This 17 year old girl was just told I have to give up my room so my brother can have a friend move in...
The fucked up part is that if I wanted a friend to move in it would NEVER happen but my sister and brother can both have someone move in..I don't see the fairness in that at all..But I have to suck it up and deal with it cuz I am almost an adult..Idts...
I am trying to be the bigger person but its not going over very well..
I have not this low since my father died.
I am losing my cool and not getting it back..
Sooooo Pissed..being in a state of depression does not help any either..
Ughh
Well you guys thanks for letting me rant..

Just another day in my life..

It's just another Thursday,

Another day of Senior Year,

Another day in a High school I hate.

A day full of teachers who don't really teach,kids I cant stand and homework I do not want to do.

I am up to my neck in frustration with 2 out of my 6 teachers.

Neither of them actually teach and both think they are right about EVERYTHING!!
Homework I am used to after 11 past years of school.

Then, ontop of the teachers I hate 90% of kids in my school so that don't make my day any better.

I have been bullied since probably kindergarten because I am not pretty enough,or cool enough, I have big teeth,I have acne,I am not skinny enough,I don't have huge boobs...so many things that I have lost track of them all..

Many nights of crying myself to sleep just to one day start believing what people say so now when I am bullied I just agree with them..

So yeah overall not a good day :/ Today is one of them days I just want to go to sleep and wake up tomorrow praying for a better day..

Anyone else feeling that way today?? 

To all the people who say you hate your parents..

I hear people all the time say "I hate my mom" or "I hate my dad" or the even more famous.."I wish my parents would die."
I honestly do not see how people can say this...
I lost my father a couple years back and at that time I didn't get along my mother but even when we would fight I would NEVER wish she would die.
I am a huge daddy's girl so to me losing my father was the end of the world and not getting along with my mother didn't help any but she was the only parent I had and I loved her no matter what.
Since my dad's passing my mother has been my rock. yes we may fight but she is my mother and the best mother in the world in my opinion. I wouldn't trade her for the world..
So when I hear people say things like "I wish my parents were dead" I just want to look at them and say lose one of your parents and you will NEVER say that again.
Anyone who has lost a parent will understand.

So to you people who say these things I want you to think for a minute about how you would feel about your parents if you lost one of them. Now answer me this.. If they really died how would you feel?? Heartbroken or Happy?? Lost or Feel like a new person?? I can answer both of those questions for you but I want you to think about it and see if you are still thinking "I wish my parents were dead" or "I hate my Mom/Dad"

Just A Girl..This Is Me!!

I'm Just A Girl..This Is Me!!

Just a girl, yes that's all I am. I'm 17 living in the worst place in the state of Ohio you could possible live with a family I can only half stand..

A senior in highschool..who can only stand a small number of people at my school..

And A daddy's girl who lost her father a couple years ago..

I have piercings and I have tattoos...

I AM Bisexual

I have done things I shouldn't have..but what teenager hasn't..

I live and I learn like everyone else..

I fall to fast and way to hard..

I say things I shouldn't..

I have gotten bad grades and failed a class..

I have bullied and been bullied..

I am the girl noone understands..

But I AM JUST A GIRL...

Yeah this is alittle more then some people want to know but I dont care This Is Me!!